Die Vampire Die

“There are some people in the world who say that writing stories, or composing music or dancing sparkly dances is easy for them. Nothing interferes with their ability to create. While I celebrate their creative freedom, a little part of me just wants to punch those motherfuckers in the teeth.”

One of my favorite musicals is the aptly though confusingly named [title of show]. It’s a show written by two guys about two guys writing a show about two guys writing a show. It’s meta and self-referential and very funny and weird in all the ways that I love.

One of the songs from the show, Die Vampire Die, is about trusting yourself creatively and making things even when plagued with self-doubt. And also punching vampires. For the metaphors, and also the wonderful mental images.

Part of writing every day this month has been attempting to come up with something that I feel good about sending out in to the world. Something I’m ok with putting my name on, and letting live on the internet forever.

That’s scary. It’s terrifying.

The vampires in my brain are always telling me that the things I’m making aren’t good enough, and that I’m not working hard enough, or doing enough, or that I’m not enough.

But I am. And I can be. And I can go all Buffy Summers and stake those vampires before they can get me down.

So that’s what this is. This is writing, even when I’m scared. This is putting things out there and letting my voice be heard.

This is punching those motherfuckers in the teeth.